Sitting with all of Zains old stuff, trying to work out what he will like or want to play with, I don’t feel in any way prepared for tomorrow, If i don’t see him, it will kill me. If he doesn’t see me, I am worried it won’t matter to him.
Go for it people, I am always up for new friends :)
This is the truest thing in my life right now.
this is literally me
I feel like I just said all of this.
Given the choice I would be honest, But if i am honest it will hurt people i care about. Therefore I cannot be honest.
I have a life changing moment happening in 2 days, if it doesn’t happen, i know i will feel lost. I can’t be honest with my family/friends.. I am afraid i will break down, and they have done so much for me that i can’t put this on them too. I feel i should be stronger, If i am stronger, they have less to worry about. The last thing anyone needs to worry about is me. When they do, it upsets me, because they have their own things to deal with. I am not important.